UgLy
Creation Date: September 2006
Today, i'm very depressed. it's quite depressing to hear bad things had happened to a loved one, more so if it's going to be permanent. my lola ("inay" as we call her) fell from a plight of stairs yesterday, cracking her pelvic bone in the process. she was taken to the hospital and they said that as soon as the doctor saw her, he proclaimed her to not be able to walk ever again - to remain an invalid for the rest of her life. if i'm not mistaken, she's already 86, and i still remember her as this very strong, feisty old lady who was so strict with all of her grandchildren except of course this cousin of mine who was her favorite? i feel kinda guilty because i haven't seen her in years... Why? Grandmas are known to be sweet, kind and they are known to usually spoil their grandchildren. WELL, that's what the kiddie books say about them!!! I grew up wishing I have a granny - "according to kiddie books". From Manila to Laguna, visiting her was an issue. Not because of the distance or who's going to drive but because nobody in my family would want to go..except perhaps my dad. As for me, I don't want to see her simply because she would always find fault as to how i look, the way i dress, the way i talk and a lot of things...
I didn't go to her birthday last May although deep inside, i really wanted to but i knew i couldn't. i just can't stand being criticized infront of my cousins and the rest of the family over & over again. it always feel like
"deja vu" everytime i'd see her :-(
sadly...i don't know if i have to forgive her for not making me feel loved, for making me ran away from her, for me to feel indifferent & cold, for me not to see her every chance i'd get, for me to dread being with her, and for me to wish i have someone else as my granny...
it's funny now that i want to see her, now that she's what? ......that she might not be able to walk for the rest of her remaining years? it's sad and funny, i don't know if i want to cry or laugh...
This song reminds me of you Inay..
UGLY - Sugababes
when i was 7
they said i was strange
i noticed that my eyes and hair weren't the same
i asked my parents if i was ok
they said you're more beautiful
and that's the way they show that they wish
they had your smile
so my confidence was up for a while
i got real comfortable with my own style
i knew that they were only jealous coz
people are all the same
and we only get judged by what we do
personality reflects name
and if i'm ugly then
so are you
so are you
there was a time when i felt like i cared
that i was shorter than everyone there
people made me feel like life was unfair
and i did things that made me ashamed
coz i didn't know my body would change
i grew taller than them in more ways
but there will always be the one who will say
something bad to make them feel great
people are all the same
and we only get judged by what we do
personality reflects name
and if i'm ugly then
so are you
so are you
people are all the same
and we only get judged by what we do
personality reflects name
and if i'm ugly then
so are you
so are you
everybody talks bad about somebody
and never realises how it affects somebody
and you bet it won't be forgotten
envy is the only thing it could be
cos people are all the same
(the same, the same)
and we only get judged by what we do
(what we do, yeah, yeah)
personality reflects name
and if i'm ugly then
(yeah, you)
so are you
so are you
people are all the same
(oh, oh, oh)
and we only get judged by what we do
(what we do, yeah)
personality reflects name
and if i'm ugly then
(yeah, so are you)
so are you
so are you
Today, i'm very depressed. it's quite depressing to hear bad things had happened to a loved one, more so if it's going to be permanent. my lola ("inay" as we call her) fell from a plight of stairs yesterday, cracking her pelvic bone in the process. she was taken to the hospital and they said that as soon as the doctor saw her, he proclaimed her to not be able to walk ever again - to remain an invalid for the rest of her life. if i'm not mistaken, she's already 86, and i still remember her as this very strong, feisty old lady who was so strict with all of her grandchildren except of course this cousin of mine who was her favorite? i feel kinda guilty because i haven't seen her in years... Why? Grandmas are known to be sweet, kind and they are known to usually spoil their grandchildren. WELL, that's what the kiddie books say about them!!! I grew up wishing I have a granny - "according to kiddie books". From Manila to Laguna, visiting her was an issue. Not because of the distance or who's going to drive but because nobody in my family would want to go..except perhaps my dad. As for me, I don't want to see her simply because she would always find fault as to how i look, the way i dress, the way i talk and a lot of things...
I didn't go to her birthday last May although deep inside, i really wanted to but i knew i couldn't. i just can't stand being criticized infront of my cousins and the rest of the family over & over again. it always feel like
"deja vu" everytime i'd see her :-(
sadly...i don't know if i have to forgive her for not making me feel loved, for making me ran away from her, for me to feel indifferent & cold, for me not to see her every chance i'd get, for me to dread being with her, and for me to wish i have someone else as my granny...
it's funny now that i want to see her, now that she's what? ......that she might not be able to walk for the rest of her remaining years? it's sad and funny, i don't know if i want to cry or laugh...
This song reminds me of you Inay..
UGLY - Sugababes
when i was 7
they said i was strange
i noticed that my eyes and hair weren't the same
i asked my parents if i was ok
they said you're more beautiful
and that's the way they show that they wish
they had your smile
so my confidence was up for a while
i got real comfortable with my own style
i knew that they were only jealous coz
people are all the same
and we only get judged by what we do
personality reflects name
and if i'm ugly then
so are you
so are you
there was a time when i felt like i cared
that i was shorter than everyone there
people made me feel like life was unfair
and i did things that made me ashamed
coz i didn't know my body would change
i grew taller than them in more ways
but there will always be the one who will say
something bad to make them feel great
people are all the same
and we only get judged by what we do
personality reflects name
and if i'm ugly then
so are you
so are you
people are all the same
and we only get judged by what we do
personality reflects name
and if i'm ugly then
so are you
so are you
everybody talks bad about somebody
and never realises how it affects somebody
and you bet it won't be forgotten
envy is the only thing it could be
cos people are all the same
(the same, the same)
and we only get judged by what we do
(what we do, yeah, yeah)
personality reflects name
and if i'm ugly then
(yeah, you)
so are you
so are you
people are all the same
(oh, oh, oh)
and we only get judged by what we do
(what we do, yeah)
personality reflects name
and if i'm ugly then
(yeah, so are you)
so are you
so are you
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