DraMa QuEEn

Creation Date: August 2005

Happy. empty. lonely.
Mixed feelings I can't seem to explain.

I was out yesterday.
I saw myself in someone else's eyes.
You could say I was dumbfounded
I didn't like it one bit

I hate myself for being me.
I hate the feelings I can't seem to contain.

I seem to like it more whenever I'm alone.
I seem to be at peace.
I'm myself MORE

I dread the moment everytime my past catches up with me.
I loathe the way I hold on to things.
Being a sentimental fool is what I call it.

There are so many things I don't understand.
At times, I even don't know myself anymore.

The other day, I was fine.
Today, I'm feeling opposite of that.

I'm in a roller coaster ride.
My emotions are in a whirl.

I wanna keep on going.
I wanna forget.
I wanna be happy.

I'm desperate...
I want to know what I really want.
What I really need.
What is good for me.

Is there someone out there who deserves me?
Someone I can trust,
someone who'd be my last,
someone I'd be able to give my heart...

Can somebody help me?
Can someone understand
and tell me what I need to do.

It ain't easy to be me
I went from heaven to hell.
I didn't like the experience,
And I just don't wanna go there again.

Still, I'm gonna keep my faith.
See what tomorrow has in store for me.
Another day won't be too much.
I think I'd be able to handle that.

One more day, one more night.
I just need to be patient
just for tonight.....

BUT
Tomorrow, will I know?